What a difference five days make.
On Friday I had my best 10k run to date. On Saturday I took the day off, as I do on my new exercise schedule. Sunday I did my workout with free weights.
Then everything went off the rails.
On Monday I skipped my run. I could have gone in the morning but i had ‘too much to do’ for my job search workshop and there’s not enough daylight left in the afternoon afterward. Then I skipped my workout on Tuesday and have no excuse at all for that, not even a lousy “a dragon ate my homework” one.
Then today’s run. Conditions were nice: sunny with an intermittent breeze, around 10ºC. I’d warm up soon enough after starting. I began and the first km seemed to take too long. It turned out to be 4:55/km, which is not bad. The second km felt much longer and came in at 5:05/km. Ten seconds slower on the second km is not good and suddenly I just lost all desire to keep going. I bailed at 2.61 km and an average pace of 5:08/km. By comparison on Friday’s run I was at 5:09/km at the 4 km mark. I was well-rested so the only thing I can think of that might affect my performance was psychological.
I was distracted. I am distracted. I have been out of work for a year and despite dozens of applications and resumes sent out, have seen only a scant few interviews. Most of the time I get nothing but silence and now that the money is running out, I am starting to sink into a bit of a funk. The job search workshop is useful, to a degree, but it eats up a good five hours every day plus time to do the ‘homework’ and I’m beginning to wonder if my time might be better spent just concentrating on getting work, period.
I am not going to give up my running but since half the battle really is in the head I need to get that sorted a bit before I can continue.
