Get to 150 pounds. But for real this time. Gotta go with the classics.
Finish my prototype game. Title to be revealed soon™.
Complete my blog redesign. Another classic. It could happen!
Revive my newsletter. I am actually working on this now, and have moved from Substack to Buttondown for the hosting.
Complete one of my unfinished novels. Likely either The Mean Mind or Road Closed. I’ve been itching to get back into writing again, and either of these stories will be fun to noodle around on.
Start a new blog or something. I kind of have something in mind, we’ll see what happens.
Focus on:
Being happy
Staying healthy
Bringing good into the world
Getting decent sleep, which will help with all of the above
New for 2024: I will check in at the end of each month to see how well I am doing on these things and use a letter, star, number or some other system to mark my progress or lack thereof. It’ll be fun!
Let’s see how I fared!
Resolutions 2024: The Verdict
Get to 150 pounds. lol no. Unless I binge donuts for the next two weeks, I will be down for the year, but nowhere near my 150 pound goal. The good news is I am probably more on track to achieve this now than at any other time in the past year, all thanks to an infection. Woo.
Finish my prototype game. lol no. Work came to a complete stop, for reasons.
Complete my blog redesign. lol yes! I actually did redesign my blog, making it much simpler and cleaner. It’s fine. I am looking to move off of WordPress thanks to the manbaby tantrums of the owner of WP that make the platform a lot less appealing, so further refinements are unlikely.
Revive my newsletter. lol no. I just didn’t have it in me. If I ever revive this (again) I will create something like six months of material before relaunching, to take the pressure off (for at least six months).
Complete one of my unfinished novels. lol no. I did painstakingly copy over Road closed into Scrivener (in Linux!), where I would work on a local copy. I’ve re-read it and have thoughts. Will they translate to actions? We’ll see!
Start a new blog or something. lol no. I experimented with a few blogging platforms, but never committed to one.
Focus on:
Being happy. Eh…
Staying healthy. I got a cold in June and an infection in December. Not great, but could have been worse? I also got that Baker’s cyst on my right knee again, but keep running pretty regularly through the year, even notching some of my best times in the past two years.
Bringing good into the world. I mean, I didn’t give birth to New Hitler or anything.
Getting decent sleep, which will help with all of the above. My sleep was overall pretty good!
New for 2024: I will check in at the end of each month to see how well I am doing on these things and use a letter, star, number or some other system to mark my progress or lack thereof. It’ll be fun! I did this once, I think. I should have set a reminder.
And now…
Resolutions 2025
None! That’s right, I am making no resolutions at all. I will still have some goals (in my head) and I still want to hit 150 pounds, but I’m making nothing official. The Culling™ now includes New Year resolutions. Onto 2025 and whatever the hell it brings!
The last few days, I’ve been pondering the state of the world, which is never a good idea.
“Let us realize the arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice.”
— Martin Luther King Jr.
(You can read an explanation for where the quote originates here.)
I think this quote is probably the one that best fits my current thinking–that over time, things improve, but the arc is long, so long we may not see it bending in a meaningful way. In other words, progress is slow enough to feel like there is none, even when there is.
Which is where I think we are now.
We live on a planet abundant with resources, enough to ensure everyone could have a home, food and health care, yet the reality is remarkably different, because we fight each other, we hate each other, we refuse to share, to look beyond ourselves, and when systems become corrupt, we shrug and accept them as just the way things are.
We can push back in our own individual ways–by supporting progressive causes, by being kind and generous, by setting an example for others to emulate–and these things help. They very gently bend that moral arc. Sometimes we see tangible signs of it, but often we don’t. Or worse, we see the progress stripped away, as is happening now in the U.S., which seems to be an empire going through first slow, and now rapid decline.
In terms of evolution, I feel we’re still pretty primitive as a species. We think we are sophisticated and smart–we went to the moon! We invented the nuclear bomb (the tech is impressive, even if the results are monstrous)! We’ve made incredible advances in medicine in the last century! But speaking of the last century, check out that body count. We’ve also gotten much better at killing each other–again, for nothing of material substance, since there are resources enough for all. Why? Because men (it’s almost always men) lust for power, seek conquest, and rally others to join them in their bloody dreams.
And we follow, because we’re pretty dumb. Dumb and still largely self-centred. You could argue the latter is a vestige of our survival instincts, much as a house cat doesn’t need to hunt mice to survive, but still does, anyway. I feel that’s pretty accurate. And what it means is we still need to evolve past these instincts, and that is the kind of thing that doesn’t happen in a generation or two.
Ultimately, assuming we survive as a species (see: climate change, among other existential threats) I think we’ll get there, but I’ve dispensed with the notion that real, substantive change will occur in my lifetime. The arc will bend noticeably in a few thousand years, when we have had enough time to physically evolve our minds. We won’t be throbby-veined giant heads like on Star Trek, but we’ll be smarter and more compassionate than we are now, and all societies across the world will be better as a result.
Here’s hoping, anyway.
“I’m having a big thought…”
UPDATE: Just for fun, I thought I’d kill a lake (sorry!) and have an LLM summarize the above. Here it is:
The text reflects on humanity's slow progress toward justice and improvement, invoking Martin Luther King Jr.'s quote, "The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice." The author acknowledges that while societal resources could support all, selfishness, hatred, and systemic corruption hinder equitable distribution. They view human evolution as primitive, marked by self-centeredness and power struggles, despite significant achievements like space exploration and medical advancements.
The narrative highlights ongoing challenges, such as climate change and societal decline, especially in the U.S., and expresses skepticism about substantive change occurring within a lifetime. Instead, the author envisions a future thousands of years away where humanity evolves toward greater intelligence and compassion, leading to global societal improvement. They remain cautiously optimistic about this distant hope.
Today I popped into Save-On Foods after toodling around Sapperton Landing for a bit, and bought some fruit and cereal and vitamins. I didn’t have my backpack with me, and didn’t feel coordinated enough to carry the various items in my hands, so I bought a paper bag for 25 cents. I can’t remember the last time I got a paper bag at a grocery store, but I’m pretty sure it was in the 1970s. It felt strange, yet groovy.
Apart from the weight gain, assorted technology failures, the U.S. election, strata-related nonsense and various existential threats, I guess it was nice that what little hair I have left on my head didn’t spontaneously burst into flames or something.
And the bacon was good.
I hope December will be better. I am making plans for it. Ho ho ho.
I’m still not sure. Some people have a passion that drives them and pushes them through their entire life. No one wonders what Picasso’s hobbies were1Apparently he liked gardening and photography, among other things. I suspect most or many people are like me–good at certain things, interested in a variety of stuff, but not especially driven by any of them. So a lot of what we do seems to be puttering around, or a bit unfocused. These are not necessarily bad things.
I like to draw and write, but I’ve left both of these interests go fallow at times, sometimes for years. I know how my mind works and constantly do battle with its weaker aspects. I am an expert at procrastination, so I’ve adopted the two-minute rule and other techniques to help. I’m lazy, so I try to motivate myself early in the day to let the momentum carry me.
I try to be funny and good to others. I try to be wise, or at least not appear to be a dummy. I consider other viewpoints. I apologize when needed. I realize I will never be perfect or everything I could be because no one can. Not even Picasso.
I’m not sure what prompted this. Sometimes I just have random deep thoughts and write them out to see what comes of them.
I don’t actually have a follow-up on this, it just felt like a catchy thing to say.
But if I was trying to boil it down into something meaningful, it would be something like this: If you really believed in something and it turned out to not just be wrong, but very wrong, don’t beat yourself up over it, just acknowledge it, learn from it, and move on.
It’s kind of fortune cookie wisdom, but it’s mid-week and my watch told me I’d have a harder time thinking today, so that’s what you get.
But also this artsy black and white photo of my feet next to a pipe by the river edge as a bonus:
The question comes from this pile of garbage neatly arrayed along the river trail this morning as I was heading out for my run. I have no idea why it is there or who put it there, but the neatness of the pile suggests it may have been collected in order to be picked up and disposed of later. Maybe. Also, where all this stuff came from is another good question, since I have not observed any of it along the river trail itself. The location is right below the overpass for the #1 highway, which may–or may not–be a clue.
The splayed-out doll on top is the perfect creepy pièce de résistance, though.
The WordPress 6.7 update got pushed out tonight, with a few new features. Normally I’d be interested, but since I’m actively trying to find a replacement for WP, not so much now.
Speaking of, I have one more major platform to try: Ghost. There will be others, but this is the main contender that’s still left.
Currently, Posthaven is looking decent, but not quite there (but maybe?) with Pika and Scribbles as lesser possibilities (I love Scribbles’ UI, but it focuses almost exclusively on text).
I’ll try to test Ghost soon™, but I have to admit I’m a little burnt out on all the options and fiddling and whatnot. I really hoped Blogstatic would be The One, but it wasn’t. They are making some changes soon, and I gave them feedback that they seemed to appreciate, so I may look at it again at some point.
UPDATE, November 18, 2024: Blogstatic has rebranded to BlogMaker and eliminated all plans in favour of one that gives you unlimited blogs. Neat! But now, instead of paying $50 per year for a single blog, you pay $25 a month for as many as you want. So if you only want a single blog, this is now six times more expensive, or a 500% increase in price, if you prefer. This puts Blogstatic BlogMaker firmly in the HELL NO category.
In the meantime, I really want to post the cat typing GIF again, but I won’t. Instead, this: